Beauty Secrets by Connie Sun

Step 1:

When I was younger, I was made to believe that one day
I would be beautiful, that beauty would come late for me
patience it runs in the family.

In other words: You are not beautiful.

A funny thing to say: how does one respond?
I scoffed and resisted the urge to give in.

My mantra: You are beautiful now, naturally.

But hope is funny too; like doubt,
it plays tricks with your mind.
An idea so tempting that
you are willing to wait and see–
A reason to carry on, dignity intact,
for the belief in a better you.

Step 2:

I am older now and somehow
I have become a girl who wears make-up,
a habit I picked up while waiting,
awkwardly at first and then with more skill,
even though I once cringed at the thought

Of ever becoming that kind of a girl;
I, who used to argue with my mother
“YOU DON’T NEED MAKE-UP TO BE BEAUTIFUL,”
am now, myself, seldom without it.

I have learned to accentuate the truth and hide–
better yet–disguise, to line my lips with lies,
color them in and polish them off with gloss.

I have learned to paint on my moods
with shades of neutral or sultry
Smoky or dazzle me, feel-free-to-judge-me.

Rule of thumb: either eyes or lips but never both–
last thing you want is both (your eyes and lips),
as if you are trying too hard to be something

You are not.

Step 3:

What if my beauty were invisible. Hope is a funny thing.
Like a joke waiting to be played, truth already made.
Is beauty still beauty if you can’t see it?

The truth is: I have never felt less beautiful.

As if a deal were made and beauty, tricked into hiding,
Or worse never coming. Somewhere in the process,
I became incomplete, either eyes or lips but never both.

Final Step:

These days no one says to me: You are not beautiful.

They don’t have to. I already believe it.

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You can read more here and, for future reference, she’s on the sidebar as well.

6 thoughts on “Beauty Secrets by Connie Sun

  1. happy birthday charlie!

    long time no talk/see but i still read your blogs… hehe. good to see you writing again. have an awesome day dear 🙂

  2. happy birthday charlie!

    long time no talk/see but i still read your blogs… hehe. good to see you writing again. have an awesome day dear 🙂

  3. Thanks Rinda! I apologize for my complete and utter inability to say in contact with more than two people at a time but hopefully that will change. Take care, and have a good one.

  4. Thanks Rinda! I apologize for my complete and utter inability to say in contact with more than two people at a time but hopefully that will change. Take care, and have a good one.

  5. hi ccfan… do u think ur friend would mind if i reposted her writing on my blog? just this one… id credit her name of course.

  6. hi ccfan… do u think ur friend would mind if i reposted her writing on my blog? just this one… id credit her name of course.

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